There was a period of my life where my job consumed me - in a good way. I was so focused, so invested, so fixated on what I was doing it was like the outside world did not exist. I was clueless to news, movies, music, and events. I remember attending an alumni’s 25th birthday party and not recognizing the background music. I asked who the artist was and heard “Gaga”. I thought he was joking. What artist had baby gibberish for a name? It seemed absurd (how wrong I was).
I was oblivious to life outside my “God Bubble”. I did not own a working television and our bandwidth wasn’t conducive to multiple people downloading and streaming so I read; I read a lot. I read testimony stories. I read about past revivals and revivalists, prophets and evangelists. I read about inner healing and the prophetic/mystic realms. I read and read and read.
I was focused. Focused on God and His kingdom. I was having radical, amazing “God” experiences and encounters. Holy Spirit was active and working. It was a rare, remarkable, and unique season.
Then the bubble popped. I stepped out of convergence and into disconnection, distraction, and diversion. My attention was divided, detoured and derailed. Holy Spirit didn’t leave. Jesus was still with me but the extraordinary lifestyle seemed to be a thing of the past. No more gold dust. No more feathers. No more physical healings. No more supernatural provision. No more out of the blue gifts from strangers. No more fits of giggles and inability to walk straight due to an overload of presence. No more amazingly clear words of wisdom and prophesy - foggy perception, murky vagueness was hallmark.
Light vs. dark. Clear vs dim. Supernatural vs. earthly. Life was a stark contrast.
It took me months to pull up and out of the distraction depths; to refocus and recalibrate. I have never returned to that previous seasons “remarkableness”. But I have righted myself; regained footing and focus.
But first and most importantly seek (aim at, strive after) His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right - the attitude and character of God), and all these things will be given to you also. (AMP)
…be concerned above everything else with the Kingdom of God and with what He requires of you, and He will provide you with all the other things. (GNB)
When I embrace distraction it is like I take steps away from God and his best for me. When I focus on other things I am choosing division in my soul. Division breeds disconnection, dissension and eventually disarray. God told me “two steps is enough room for the enemy to creep in a wreck havoc.” Two steps. Better to stay close, stay still, and know He is God (and I am not).